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My Darling Bill,
Your second anniversary date is coming up. It seems like yesterday when my world came crashing down. No one will ever know how helpless I felt that night, hearing you call my name over and over knowing that you needed me and being unable to get to you in time to hold you close and tell you how much I loved you. I tried my darling but, you were gone before I could get to you. I kept calling your name hoping that you heard me and knew that you were not alone and that help was coming.
Bill, you are always on my mind and in my heart. I have been trying to think of what to write for your memorial. There are so many things to say. There is so much in my heart but I don’t know how to put it down on paper. I know you understand what I want to say because you recognize it from my heart directly to you. But here goes… trying to put it on paper as a memorial to you… to show how great you were and how much you meant and still mean to those you left behind.
BILL WALKER… what a beautiful person. You made my life worth living again. You were sent to me when I needed you. You always said that I was sent to you too. God in his infinite wisdom… but why were you taken away? It was so sudden with no time for good-byes!! I know that I will never know here on this earth the answer to that question, but I do know that I owe God much for bringing you into our lives… I know that some day we will be together again.
You became entwined almost immediately into our lives. I had been left a widow with five children to raise. When you came into our lives I was at my lowest. I thought that I would live the rest of my life without love. Then God sent you to me and I began to live again. I know that when he sent me you he sent me my soul mate and a extraordinary person to help raise my children. We all became a true FAMILY.
I get angry at times because you were taken from us but then I think about all the memories that God let us build with you and how they have become treasures to us and I have to give hie thanks for the time we did have.
We had you for seventeen years. We built many memories with the children and then the grandchildren. You were there and shared their lives with them. There were school times, weddings and yes the births of the grand children.
You became Pop "B". I think that was something that was very important to you. You were the perfect grandpa. You had such a good time with the grand kids. They loved you Bill. Connor, Zach and Brittany still miss you very very much. You were a big part of their lives. You shared with them. You were one of them when you played with them. Be it Batman, riding bikes or just sitting down reading one of your hunting magazines with them and sharing your knowledge with them. Connor and Zach say then are going to get you back here when they get stronger and older because everyone misses you and needs you… It has been almost two years and you are still a big part of their lives. You left a legacy for them and they will eventually pass it on to their children. Little Zayna has gotten bigger and is quite the two year old. She would just be melting your heart with all the expressions she comes up with. I think you already know about the baby that is on the way. Kim says she knows that you must have put in a word for this one to get here. Here Brittany is twelve years old and she is finally going to get a baby brother or sister. We’ll be thinking of you when the baby gets here. I know you’ll be there in spirit for this one too. WE LOVE YOU BILL!!
When I looked at you, I always saw more than friendly eyes and a warm smile… I saw honesty, kindness, and yes love. You were the shoulder that I leaned on, the hand that I held. When I think about LOVE, what it is and what it means, I always think about YOU.
I’ll always remember the song that was playing – the first time we danced and I knew -- As we swayed to the Music and held each other – I fell in LOVE WITH YOU. I remember calling you at work whenever our song would be playing!!
Every time I hear our song I feel the way I did that night long ago when you held me in your arms for the fist time and we danced and our song was playing … I LOVE YOU BILL WALKER, and I always will.
One lifetime was not long enough to tell you or show you how much the love we shared meant to me… I hope and I believe that you are with me still and that you know that you’re everything special that means love to me. (You are now my Angel, the one that was my friend… my husband… and my soul mate.)
You loved life and lived it to the fullest. I know that we are not the only ones that miss you. You had so many friends we could never go anywhere that you wouldn’t run into someone you know. It might be someone from work, church, bowling, fishing, hunting, golf, or even grade school. When I talk to any of them they tell me how much they miss you too.
My darling, I want you to know that I’ll be looking forward to the time that we are together again. I love you with all my heart and am trying to go on as best I can. It is hard without you. There is no one day that you aren’t on my mind and in my heart in everything that I do.
When I am feeling all alone, I close my eyes and think of all the happiness that we knew… and somehow, I feel better then, because I clearly see, since I hold you close within my heart you’re always here with me… There are days when I feel you so near me that I turn to look for you. I can’t see you but I know your are there. Until we meet again my love… I love you.
Remember I promised you… Love….,
Forever and a Day!!!
Shirley
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