Mom, I miss you so much. I talk to you all the time. I know you are watching over all of us. I am very greatful for that. With all the hard times we are going through, it gives me a little bit of comfort knowing that you are never far away. You are not with me in the flesh and I miss that terribley. You are however with me where ever I go in my heart and my mind. I know that the kids miss you and Riley tells me that he loves me to Noni and back. I cry everytime even if it is on the inside everytime he says that. I am trying to be strong for my family, Dee, Dad and the future, but it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I am not sure how much longer I can be strong before I breakdown. I have wanted to add a page to this site so many times, but I have no idea what to say. We all know that words come easier to Dee then to me. Please just watch over the kids, Chris and mostly Dad. Hearing all the sadness in his voice scares me. I know life is hard for Dad because it is for me. I hope I made you proud of me somewhere in my lifetime. I have regrets that I lost time with you. You always told me that you can't change the past, that it is the future that matters. I am learning from all my mistakes and I wish you were here to help me through the journey of life. People can say I am crazy, but I know you are here somewhere. I love you Mom! I miss you every second of every day. Love your baby girl, Lindsay