Mitchell took his own life one week before his 15th birthday and we can truely say we never saw it coming. We had no warning, no signs and I will not go into detail but just know he was so loved and is so missed and it affected so many, many people.
Much of what happened after Mitchell's death is mostly a blur. A nightmare that there was no waking up from. Each day blended into each other. There were so many decisions that had to be made that we never dreamed of having to make. So many people wanted to support us and be a part of Mitchell's memorial service that we had to move it to a larger venue. He was so loved and all that knew him or of him were in a total state of shock and disbelief. What happened? Why Mitchell? No, not Mitchell! This is not true, he can't be gone!
It is so hard to think we will never see Mitchell again. Never see his smiling face, his cheeky grin. Never feel his wonderful hugs. He had such a gentle, kind, thoughtful and loving spirit and that makes it even harder to understand why? A question that will never be answered.
Life is so hard without him. Our life as we knew it has changed forever and can never, will never, be the same without him.
It does not get any easier as each day goes by. There is always someone missing wherever we go, whatever we do. I now know what a broken heart is and it is a physical pain that you can feel. You have to force yourself to go on each day without him when all you want to do is curl up in a ball and shut the world out, but you can't, you have to keep living because there are others who depend on you. Others who have been just as deeply effected as you have.
MITCHELL WE WILL NEVER FORGET YOU.