She died instantly in an automobile accident.
The driver was the man she was to marry.
He came away with an injured arm and then claimed she was driving.
April 9, 2006
Bastrop Woman Dies in Single-Vehicle Crash
Around 3:30 am this morning, Louisiana State Police investigated a single-vehicle crash in Morehouse Parish which resulted in a death. The crash occurred on LA Hwy 139, near Perryville, when a northbound 2003 Chevrolet Cavalier exited a left curve and traveled off the road and struck a culvert. The vehicle went airborne and the roof of the Cavalier then struck a tree. The twenty-one year old passenger and Bastrop resident, Holli Crockett, was pronounced dead at the scene. The driver, twenty-one year old Bastrop resident, Jeremy West, was transported to Morehouse General Hospital with moderate injuries. Both were wearing seat belts. Alcohol is suspected to be a factor and routine toxicology tests are pending. West was charged with vehicle homicide and careless operation.
I have been doing a lot of reading lately. Trying to figure out when I would be able to finally live with the fact that I will not see holli again right now. And I have come to the realization that I will never be able to "live" with it. I will just be able to exist with it.
I tried to explain to my husband the other day how I was feeling but could never get him to understand. I can't seem make anyone understand.
I struggle with the pain and grief every day. It never seems to go away.
Every day the only thing I seem to be able to pray for is strength to get through each day. I fight every day just to keep living because I do not want to live without her.
I have a difficult time talking about her without feeling the pain of losing her all over again,sometimes I cannot even breathe when I think about her.
I have a very difficult time thinking about Holli without the tears starting. Yet I can't not think about her. The first thing in the morning I think about her coming in and kissing me good morning and every night I picture her telling me about her day and then kissing me goodnight. Every moment of my day she is with me. I see her in everything.
I know I will always miss her and I pray for the day when I can talk and think about her without all this pain and then I feel bad because I feel like I'm trying to forget her and that is not what I am doing. I have to pretend that she is just not here and not that she is gone forever.
~~They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
will change the way we feel.
For no-one knows the heartcahe,
That lies behind our smiles,
No-one knows how many times,
we have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something,
so there isn't any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.
When you lose a child
Your whole world is shattered,
Your hopes and dreams are crushed
Your heart is broken,
Your life is forever changed,
You feel as though you will never again find a moment of happiness,
And then one day you finally do smile again,
But suddenly you feel guilty ,
As if you are somehow forgetting your angel,
And then you realise it was your precious child who gave you that smile
just to say "I love you"
I love and miss you Holli and hug you every night in my dreams.